Bitter Sweet Day

Thursday was my last day as a full time employee at Sedgwick County EMS. For months I have been both looking forward to and dreading this day. I have taken time and prayed for so long on this decision and God has done everything but smack me in the face to tell me that my place right now is home with the kids. This makes my stomach hurt. Change is something that is so hard for me.
The hubs and I decided on a "last day" a few months ago and I have been counting the days since. I absolutely love my job and the thought of never being able to work there again was extremely painful. I had talked to my employer and they said due to people leaving recently and requesting to stay as part time employees and then never working, they have started a 60 day wait period. If I call them back 60 days after my last day as a full time employee and still have the desire to work part time then they would allow me to start back as part time. I want to work about 1 day a week, around the kids schedules and also to get me some adult alone time, but still be home the majority of the time. So I will now count down the days until Nov 6th when I can start part time.

One of the things that makes leaving this job the hardest is the fact that I have the most amazing partner! I seriously love this guy as if he was a member of my family. He is the most giving person I have met and is such a strong leader. He is a great husband and father and I hope that my marriage is as awesome as his is after 25 years. I love going to work and knowing what to expect. I know his temperment, I can almost predict how he will respond in any situation. This is extremely helpful in a job that is filled with the constant unexpectedes.

 

Tim: You have made this job and complete joy and I am so glad that I got to spend so many years with you as my partner. I know that we will remain very close and who know.....we may end up back together sometime!!!

 

Now I can share the complete excitement that I have to spend more time with my babies. Since having Logan I have realized how fast time really goes. Before I know it they will be in school and my influence in their lives will be decreased drastically. I look forward to loving, nurturing and simply doing life with them. I look forward to watching them grow and sharing those special moments with them that I would have otherwise missed.

 

And who knows......I may end up back at the job I so love someday in the future!!!